I force feed my cat with love too!
Bahaha!
Just Another Night Rant…
There are officially twelve days until my twenty first birthday. Which if you would have asked me a month or three months ago or even a year ago I would have told you how excited I am for my twenty first birthday. And as of right now I am terrified. I’m not terrified that I will be able to drink or go out with friends, I am excited for that. I am scared at the fact that I will be another year older. I know twenty-one is not old by any means, but I’m scared at what my life will have in store for me. I have two more years of college and then I’ll be a nurse, which is nerve racking enough to think about taking care of patients and being on my own. I’ve always been excited about the future however, right now in this very moment I’m a little freaked out. A lot of women my age are dating their future husbands…I feel that everyone is either graduating college, getting engaged or married, or pregnant. Which I am so far off the map on all of those. I know I have plenty of time to fine Mr. Right, but sometimes a girl gets to freak out about what if she never finds the one or doesn’t accomplish her goals. What if…? Those stupid mind games that we play to trick ourselves into believing we won’t get our happy ending like everyone else. And tonight I am thinking about those what if questions. Of course watching romantic movies doesn’t help, we all know which ones I’m talking about, boy mets girl, they fall in love, and live happily ever after. But how often does that really happen, it’s never that easy. The movies fuck girls minds. From toddlers girls watch princess movies were the prince rescues the princess from the evil queen and they fall deeply in love and live in a castle. I don’t know anyone who lives in a castle and are married. Honestly, thank you Disney for fucking all young girls up. We grow up thinking that our prince will just walk into our lives and we will get married and have a million and one babies and the world will be perfect. Wrong. Wrong. Wrong. Finding the person you are going to spend the rest of your life will is hard work. You have to do this thing called dating, which can be horrible yet entertaining. And you might have the stalker from time to time that just won’t leave you alone. Dating, it’s hard. And I know I haven’t been on a lot of dates but just talking to a guy is work. I just want easy. My life is complicated already, I don’t need a man coming into my life to just make it more complicated. Easy, like a summer romance. Easy, like riding a bike. Easy, like falling asleep at night after an amazing day. Easy. Why is that so difficult. I know that relationships are work and can’t always be easy but for right now I would love easy. Then again I would love a guy to fight will to have amazing make up sex. For now I just have to have make my live easier because God only knows how long I’ll be waiting for a man to sweep me off my feet. Every day that passes I am one day closer to finding the man of my dreams. And maybe this will be the year, but maybe it won’t be.
<3
True love’s kiss will break any curse.
I’m so happy that they made the connection between these two. I told my friends that this was going to happen…and I don’t think they believed me. <3 (Source: everthehero)
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